another situationship

I wanted things to be different. I wanted something healthy, someone to build with. I hadn’t been vulnerable with a woman in years and I opened myself up to you. I thought I was doing all the right things. I came when you called and I did what you pleased. I was a giver and you were a taker. You wanted someone to take care of you and I did my best with what I had. You were in love with material things and wanted me to be someone I wasn’t. My situation will change, but will your character? I feel used and empty inside. I don’t want to fill the void with another woman. At the end of the day, I miss the dog more than I miss you. I see the good more than the bad. I don’t see you as a villain, but rather someone who needs help. I know I’ll meet someone who knows how to reciprocate. I know better now thanks to the red flags I ignored with you. I just wanted you to love me but I need to love myself more. You don’t hurt as bad as the last one and you showed me that I still have some healing to do. I repeated the cycle and it’s up to me to change so I don’t feel this pain again.